On some days it felt like everything has normalised and the hectic schedule in the past week has made things gotten a bit better. The occasional quiet moments remain torturous and when the mind stops being occupied by work, by the toddler who is becoming more irresistible each and every day and by everything going in life, the feeling of loss is overwhelming. So to my #2 who eventually decided not to come to us: I would have tried everything I could, if I had the chance to. Just want to let you know that Papa and Mama had been very excited by the thought of you joining our small cosy family and you little baby, you will be missed.
